the worst thing that has happened to my life was on the 18th.

its the worst feeling that I’ve ever had:

worst than somebody passed away,

worst than broken up with boyfriend,

worst than being fired,

worst than being punished,

worst than getting a (D)onkey in class,

worst than being talked about,

worst than anything.. just anything..

all my hard work, gone, just, like, *dramatic pause*  THAT.

literally, *poof!*, gone, hilang, , mou jor, mey you liao, disappeared.

sigh. i’m broken, inside, out.

rescue me please.

the clock ticks 12am: monday: work.

I was browsing through hypebeast site and found this mad cool vid shot by Jon Rawlinson..

just to share you with you guys, this video is really beautiful.

ha..

i couldn’t remember when was the last time i went to the aquarium, but i’d love to visit Okinawa Churaumi Aquarium, one day, by myself.

am feeling much better after watching this, thanks hypebeast for posting this on their website.

if not, i wouldn’t  feel so good, tonight.

off to bed, good night.

unconsciously, this frustration inside me is growing every single minute…
I don’t know how long more can I take this… seriously, i’m getting really tired of this ****.

dei, why am i crapping about it again?? no, wait, i’m not thinking about anyone atm…

its been such a long time since i last thought about someone so deeply, I think..

listening to nettaiya / snow kiss wouldn’t help as it will makes me think about the past even more.. !@#$$^@!

but its my favourite song wor, HOW!??!?!

sigh…

I’ve been constantly telling myself that ‘it’s gonna be alright’, ‘it’s gonna be okay’,
‘you can go through this’, ‘you can do it’, ‘tomorrow is a better day’,
‘its just the matter of time’, ‘you’re not alone’, ‘believe in faith & hope’,
‘love is in the air’, ‘they know that you’re hardworking & helpful’,
‘they know it’, ‘tell yourself that you’re happy’, ‘if she can do it, i’m sure you can do it too!’

etc etc…

Oh, please give me a break, will you?

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lets take a peep here on whats happening in this coming OCT:

• SPEED LIVE TOUR 2009 (JPN ONLY) will not be able to make it.
• Grad Convo (Mar & Aug 2006 intake) i dont think i can take off too.
• Super musical staging @ ourcapitalPAC. must attend.
• the MONKEY is coming back home. will be busy working.
• Superfriend’s birthday. will not be able to make it.
• another superfriend’s birthday. don’t think i’ll be able to make it also.
• to be continued…

so much to do, so little time… SAD RIGHT!

god, if you do exist / are listening to me, please grant me a wish…

fly me to jpn in OCT & watch SPEED live concert before the world ends please…

HELLO??? there????

ok, no answer, sleep time then…

bye world…