i just wanna be me..

fcuk stupidity

fcuk anything to do with lies

i repeat, i just wanna be ME.

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oh,

i’ve been and i’m still enjoying my new house / new room / new bedsheet / new wardrobe / new kitchen wtf / new sofa / new dining table / new washing machine / new erm, i cannot think of any more right wtf

yeah, i couldn’t online still.. don’t ask me why because i’m too lazy to be bothered by the management…

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went to his promo tour function yesterday and i enjoyed listening to his live singing performance… /superbig wet eyes

raymond lam is so soooo handsome and charming in real life… 

actually, nope.. abang eugene lagi handsome la if you get what i mean

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ta! enjoy your weekend and happy deepaaavali!

so.. yea,
i don’t know when is the tm guy gonna come and fix the damn phone line and yadda yadda…
mm, just bare with my lousy outdated blog lor… which means no interner for… at least a week or more??

a lot of stuffs happened lately. i wish i could say it out but i have to keep it all to myself.. tsk!

and OH! i really hate asking people for help
when i know that particular person will not help me with his/her own heart.

what’s the point of asking them for help when i can do it by myself..??

tell me, tell me. tell me!

well, I know, not exactly everything i can do it by myself, like carrying heavy stuff:
eg, 12 1500ml bottles water in a box / or maybe a gas,
climb up and down to do dis and that, clean this and that when there’s no cooperation,
and in the end get scolded etc… wtf wtf wtffff

i’ve got a few cuts and a few blue black here and there while i’m moving stuffs in to my new hse…
yet i didn’t make a big fuse about it… 

so, stop telling me that i should ask people to help me when i CAN afford to do it by MYSELF.

call me stubborn or anything close to that, go, go ahead and say it! i don’t give a fu*k about it.

I really don’t know why i’m like this, thinking that i could do things all by myself.

I just, don’t wanna trouble people, get it?
Well, if i really can’t do shits about it, of course, i will ask help from.. anyone that i know…

ALSO,

i don’t have the time to msn with anyone this few days as you know
that i’m BUSY moving into my new hse wtf why am i repeating this.
but just in case, you don’t fu*king get it.

I’m SO not ignoring you or trying to abandon you wtf get it?

i’m just plain busy!

stop being childish and keep spamming my msn whenever i online saying that

“you don’t wanna talk to me already?”  or something like that lah!

sigh. people, grow up!

i’m tired of replying you ” no la ” x73238712901 times

ok. ciao. get it or leave me alone. bye.

p/s: dear readers, i will be back once i have got my internet over at new homee

Look, when I saw this while driving back home, I gasp sampai tak terhingga eh…

“wah.. hou leng ar!“ 

“ummm…” *enjoys the existence of the rainbow

how can the dark coloured sky exist when there’s this beautiful rainbow around? or vise versa

but if the dark coloured sky doesnt exist,
we wouldn’t appreciate how beautiful this rainbow can be to some people; life, don’t you think so?

there’s always hope and colourful path ahead of us…

i wondered what’s the rainbow tryin to tell me or i’m just thinking too much wtf? bleh… 

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anywayyy… I helped mama eri to carry her stuffz to move in to our new house…
kitchen is still renovating… the floor is still dusty.. ~.~ /yiu
will be going to our new house, almost everyday, to check and move in stuffz bit by bit

sneak peak of my boohoo living room wtf so small..
no lar, actually this condo is bigger than my current apartment d..
so.. heh… /happy

taaa rennng… balcony, d’oh.. can see klcc and kl tower wo… cheh.. so small..

the gate… mama eri locking the damn gate… the walkway was very dark and i’m afraid of darkness lah… so basically, i remembered my phone has this photo light function and on-ed it… heh ok, my phone rocks! 

hrmmp… does anybody know where to get beach painting?
and erm… preferably just the sky and the calm beach alone..

it doesnt really matter if the painting has no trees/mountain/ships/chairs/sexy babe/hot hunk.

all i want is just a very calm beach painting in bright tone to put up on my wall…  *hint hint

anywayyy, does anybody know how much it cost normally? 

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wake up > work > move in stuffz to new hse > repeat the routine please. yo.

fu*k.. i’m tired…. lol .. fu*k the world… i’m gonna sleep! ta!

i was ranting about one people to this particular person.

and i even typed it out in this post … -_-”

hmmm… in the end, i choosed to delete it and want to share this with you guys out there… :D 

You Can Be Whatever You Want To Be

There is inside you
all of the potential to be whatever
you want to be
all of the energy to do whatever
you want to do.

Imagine yourself as you would like to be,
doing what you want to do,
and each day, take one step
towards your dream.

And though at times it may seem too
difficult to continue,
hold on to your dream.

One morning you will awake to find
that you are the person
you dreamed of
doing what you wanted to do
simply because you had the courage
to believe in your potential
and to hold on to your dream.

(c) Donna Levine

Actually, I’ve been contemplating a lot these days, and in the end, I thought of this beautiful phrase.

‘Life is, really about making choices’

It’s okay if you don’t agree with me

There are times when a person upsets me; I’d still carry on with a smiling face throughout the entire day.

Why?

Because I know that at the end of the day, I’m the one who is suffering and not them! I would like to say it once again, really, it’s not them, they wouldn’t know and they wouldn’t want to know.

So, yeah, why not, choose to smile instead, since it’ll bring you and the other party back to harmony & peace. Not forgetting, a smile can really keeps a fight away, really. /phew

It’s easy to be said than done, yeah, its true. And it takes up a lot of energy to actually just, smile and pretend everything is cool. Well, I’m positively practicing it every now and then. After all I’m not perfect and there is no one out there are categorize as the perfect one. Yeah, I’m here keeping my patience’s level still, heh.

You see some people thinks that I’m stupid enough to not know that they are taking me so lightly / carelessly / insensitively / whatever you name it-ly wtf. And yet, I know I couldn’t do a thing about it because it’s them.

Anyway, have you heard of Karma?

And if it keeps you happy for doing such bad deeds/manners/things to me or any human beings, then fine, it’s alright, go ahead!

I promise I will never do such a thing to you back because I have learned that, “what goes around, comes around”. I need not to do a thing to you because I know that what goes around, oh my god, really, comes around.

Remember, Make the right choice and smile. :-) 

open your heart, greet and speak with anyone wholeheartedly.

People can feel/sense it and they will definitely appreciate it. 

p/s: i really appreciate the conversation we had earlier in the car. thanks.

if you’ve noticed, i have not been going out to party like dis crazy, for quite some time..

heh~~ heeh~~ 

and, this is not the party that requires to you wear the typical fluffy thang… /phew thanked god!

actually, this parteh is to celebrate ahjen 2x’s birthdayyyy! /yays

we makan-ed domino pizzas, chill-ed, play-ed some farnee games.. and lalala… all gone crazy!

wahahaha!!! kesian bryan

lameness group in da world!

star cake slurpssss

LOLness

ATTACCCCK!!!

damn cold can?

highlight of the night, lmao!!

ahjed jahatttt! *shivers

eri | jen | eunice

A night that full with laughters! hiak, thanks ahjen for inviting.
happy birthday again, oops! happy belated birthday /hugs!

photos taken by albert ng & somebody else, i think… (will include it in once i found out who is it! thx)

i’ve been wishing/waiting/dreaming/hoping for this to happen since 10 years ago…?

at last, it happened for real!

bah… it’s getting a little bit personal here…
but i think, it is okay to reveal it out that i’m finally going to live with my family…
sigh, both of my elder sisters are already married (one of them are married,
the other one just got her regristration stuff done with her husband)
it means, they won’t be staying with us anymore…

it’s okay, i told myself… i know this is going to be happen.
so I have already prepared for it…
at least, i’d still have two of my younger brothers at home for me to bully/fool around haha!   

here’s the sneak peak of my room and the toilet next door /sweat

as you can see, it’s empty still… will be moving in next month… excited can!?

do you know that, whenever i heard people saying that “mom always nag me about this & that.. why are you coming home late and etc..” sort of thing.. it never failed to irritate me… 

why?

1) living with your family is supposed to be a damn happy thing in da world.
unlike some people, they don’t even have a bloody chance to live with their family/parents…      

2) if your mom doesn’t question you about when you’re coming home and etc,
then, thats something wrong. Well, you can say that your mum trust you or
maybe, your mom understands you and bla bla bla..
the thing is, they don’t ask doesn’t mean that don’t want to know…

3) when they are living with family, they will have the desire of moving out with who and who and vice versa       

and the list goes on and on… sigh…
whatever that is…i know i am going to apreciate this damn chance..
to be able to live with my mom especially…
call me a mommy’s girl or homey/boring/easily satisfied person, i don’t care because i know,
in the end of the day, i’m the happy girl and not you! ahahahaha

this few weekends, I have been going out wid mom & sista for furniture shopping….

Today, we had lunch together at leo’s cafe……

sweat.. didn’t expect Amber to be Leo’s ambassador -_-”
actually, she look pretty okay in the menu..she’s not a dish lah! d’ohhh

and look! what i’ve ordered…  

a GREEEEN garlic toast… O_O” damn jakun!
i’ve never seen a GREEEEN garlic toast before in my life…

and here goes my first time, furniture shop for our house!!

superrr excited lor

but there’s just so MANY choices!!

RAWRRRRR, pening cannn?!

spent few hours choosing the right refrigerator with mom..
ended up, we didn’t get anything because mom needed to think about it… -,-

SEE, this is only one of the many rows of refrigeratorSSssssssss

then i came across to the most sexy refrigerator!!
brown in colour, made in japan, the stylo is damn milo.

I think this sexy is made for me wan lor… ar, how i wish to have this in my house~
but ey, bloody hell the cost is like what, RM7999? wtf? *nevermind, let eugene know,
so that he have to buy this before proposing to me. wtf im just kidding.

then we went to IKEA to shop for window accessories…
bloody hell, really a bad idea to shop @ IKEA on saturdays/sundays lorrr…
damn crowded! makes me don’t feel like going there anymore… bahhhhhhh…

tell me, how to shop like datttt? T___________T       

p/s: gained x kgs since i’ve started my internship… :’(

ta! it’s monday again /thumbsdown

when you’re good, people will tend to take advantage of you or even make fun of you.

when you’re bad / evil, people will tend dislike you / bitch about you.      

          

wtf

i’m stuck..

find balance between being good and bad? nah.

p/s: just a thought… i’m not talking about you… don’t perasan ok wtf

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i think i’ve just leveled up my Patience skill..

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check this out… 

What is patience?

Patience is the ability to:

• Sit back and wait for an expected outcome without experiencing anxiety, tension, or frustration.
• Let go of your need for immediate gratification.
• Display tolerance, compassion, understanding, and acceptance toward those who are slower than you in developing maturity, emotional freedom, and coping abilities.
• Accept your human frailty in the pursuit of personal, physical, emotional, and spiritual growth. 
  Accept the set backs and reversals inevitable in your quest for personal growth.
• Believe in the concepts of permanence and commitment. Be calm and considerate as you handle the growth issues in your committed relationships in marriage, family, career, community, or church.
• Hang on to a relationship when trouble arises that may take some time to resolve.
• Feel peace, contentment, and satisfaction that you are on the path to recovery and personal growth.
• Temper your enthusiasm, energy, exuberance, and excitement after you have experienced a renewal of spirit, received revelations or insights.
• Accept the non-enthusiastic reception of others to share in your “new found truths.”
• Accept that there is no need to rush yourself or others in facing the challenges of emotional growth.
• See that overnight reformations are rarely long lasting; gradual change and growth have a greater durability.
• Feel relaxed, calm, and placid as you face your daily schedule and the challenges it presents.
• Believe that your day to day efforts, sacrifices, and changes are building a new edifice of a whole person with healthy self-esteem.
• Feel satisfied with the use of the Tools for Coping tools in a gradual reshaping, rebuilding, and remodeling of yourself into a confident, secure, trusting, loving person dealing in healthy communication, and self-actualization.