to myself that I’m pretty lovable wtf,

another sec, i’d think that i’m damn friggin annoying by posting up so many of my camho’s pics

but again, how many is MANY???

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to myself that I’m dumb enough to not master in any kind of spoken language..

next sec, I’d think that, hey, they are tons of Malaysian facing the same problem as you,

or maybe, it’s just me. yeah, maybe.

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to myself that I’m too nice to people and then people don’t appreciate me for being ME..

next sec, sometimes i really need to be the ahem bad type of Eri to make people know who I am.

they just don’t get it when you’re being nice to them. gees!

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to myself why am I here but not there… is it because there’s no one supporting me / believes in me or

is it because i’m not good enough to let people know that I am willing to learn?

another sec, hey, it’s okay… it takes time to be there and I’m still young…

ya right, young… what if I missed the chance/opportunity? do i have the 2nd chance or even the 3rd?

oh fuggit ler? am I suppose to behave like this? /faints

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to myself that i’m not gonna get married… because marriage is not a two person kind-of-thing…

but in truth, i’m willing to do it once we’ve had enough of what we want…

Ohh, what is enough??? say it again???? haa-haa-haa

yea, judge me for being so stupid that i’m willing to settle down at 21, it’s not like I care, yea.

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to myself I can be confident when i’m at this place / this stage of my life…

next, i’d be thinking that, no lah, i actually know not much about it.. still got a lot to do and learn..

so why must i behave like what i’ve thought?

maybe, it’s just a positive way to face it… its just not me..you know

maybe, it’s because no one has ever taught me how to be it… yea, maybe..

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to myself that November is the most happening month of 2008..

3 wedding dina(s), our birthdayz, omg open house, 1st month of work; new stuff to learn/do,
interview with department supervisors, dress/heels/present hunting wtf, friends’ birthday,
chase telekom to install the damn phone in my hse, and etc…

I spent A LOT this month.. feel kinda bad… guilty for being a spendthrift, well, not really lah…

and at times, I really hate to spend…

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you know what, heck it. dont bother to read lah, it’s just so.. random of me typing this wtf

Thank you, to those who made it to my 21st bday celebration.

Really, thank you.

and i truly love all the gifts that I’ve received

Oh, more to come right? since there’s 2 more days to my real birthday~

my darlings..  / all kind of expression ~.~

2 days more, i’m no longer 20… oh nooooo

*enjoys the existence of the rainbow

all i want is just a very calm beach painting in bright tone to put up on my wall…

anywayyy, does anybody know how much it cost normally?

You Can Be Whatever You Want To Be

There is inside you
all of the potential to be whatever
you want to be
all of the energy to do whatever
you want to do.

Imagine yourself as you would like to be,
doing what you want to do,
and each day, take one step
towards your dream.

And though at times it may seem too
difficult to continue,
hold on to your dream.

One morning you will awake to find
that you are the person
you dreamed of
doing what you wanted to do
simply because you had the courage
to believe in your potential
and to hold on to your dream.

(c) Donna Levine