All i want for Christmas is you. nothing beats this song and i truly mean it, all i want, is you.

had the best Christmas eve and Christmas ever.. celebrated ‘em w/ close friends!

and i was surprised to received AALIYAH CD!!!!
I didn’t know you’d go out and look for it… it’s the thoughts that count! you know who you are.. : ))

love it alotttt, i must say!

I’ll be getting the photos from the last shoot in few days time.. so i’ll be posting!!

..and I hope everyone had a great celebration with loved ones.. and, and, and…. HAPPY BOXING DAY!

“I am not alone at all, I thought. I was never alone at all. And that, of course, is the message of Christmas. We are never alone. Not when the night is darkest, the wind coldest, the world seemingly most indifferent. For this is still the time God chooses.” ~ Taylor Caldwell

xoxo

dear #november,

this is for you.

x x

how’s everyone reunion dinner/fam-gathering? bet most of you have celebrated Mid-autumn festival with family.

well, we didn’t celebrate it due to some Chinese traditional rules. I just had a simple dinner with Mom and Sis. This place used to be really loud and lively, is now being replaced with our own voices…

some say it’s our hearts that hold us together; never the distance. perhaps, its true.

cherish n’ love
xx E

photo taken in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah – 2011
you can only lose it once, and never twice; sense of self-importance..

..and the key to your own heart. x

young x mad

cross x round

tears x joy

rock x cotton

u x me

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Dear single you,

how are you coping with life? tell me honestly, how do you feel about yourself and the entire incident? I’m sure you did very well for the past few months. I can see you smiling while reading this.

Take a deep breath and listen to your own heartbeat.

Who are the first person cross your mind? Old flame? Or someone new? No matter who is that; what is going to happen, pat yourself at the back, at least, you still have, you. This is the best relationship you can have in the world, and that’s with you, yourself and not belong to anybody. If you can’t afford to love yourself well enough, you are not qualified to love another. Everything begins from within.

We are never alone. Put aside our fear for the big L word. Truth is, we always know, there’s always someone out there looking for us.

Just don’t get too used of being alone, dining alone, shopping alone, and everything else alone. When Mr Right is here, you have to make sure you are ready to fall in love, all over again.

Let me hear you out.

Just close your eyes, and I’ll be there for you.

x,
E

Maybe.. that’s the case for now.

No, not the negativity is hitting me. whenever I’m in a trouble or facing some unusual event, I always find no one to be at my back to support me. I get it, and honestly, that’s quite a feeling ey?

No matter how, you just can’t explain them in words. good and bad, at the same time. like you can be strong and brave to face this all by yourself, and that’s supposed to be a good thing. However, that’s not someone wanna deal with at the end of the day. you want somebody who can always wrap you in the arms and say – everything’s all right, you have me.

Probably I’ve been fighting for this far too long, broke down don’t-know-how-many-times, gotten the habit to take sleeping pills when the dark hits me, constantly telling myself that I’m alright and okay when i don’t actually mean it, I don’t appreciate food or something etc..etc..

I wanna put this aside & see what comes up : )) things do happen when you least expect it, aye?

Oh, I just remembered I have a secret, since feb 2009. I was and i’m still too chicken to admit or share it with anyone. I’ll let this person know, one day, perhaps.. brrrr… I always thought that I do live with no regrets, but now i don’t. I just want to tell this to this particular person, how I felt at that time. After all, we wont know whats going to happen tomorrow, right?

Courage, Eri, Courage!

x

ps: have a great weekend y’all : ))