shall I go..

there’s so much to say, but where are the words?

I’ve tried to gulp ‘em down, but it comes up and down again for no reason… should… should I just go for it?! the nausea is killing me, literally. URGH.

I hate this.

planned to swim today,

but

unconsciously, this frustration inside me is growing every single minute…
I don’t know how long more I have to take this in… seriously, i’m getting really tired of this.. Its been such a long time since i last thought about someone so deeply, I think..

listening to nettaiya / snow kiss wouldn’t help as it will makes me think about the past even more..

sigh…

I’ve been constantly telling myself that ‘it’s gonna be alright’, ‘it’s gonna be okay’,
‘you can go through this’, ‘you can do it’, ‘tomorrow is a better day’,
‘its just the matter of time’, ‘you’re not alone’, ‘believe in faith & hope’,
‘love is in the air’, ‘they know that you’re hardworking & helpful’,
‘they know it’, ‘tell yourself that you’re happy’, ‘if she can do it, i’m sure you can do it too!’

etc etc…

x

.. gonna sleep early tonight.. I hope I can keep it up …

xx

that’s right, how can a single soul work in a bloody CAGE?

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Seriously! What the heck is the Head of this Caged System thinking?

scared of the workers run off with the $money$ *_*?

then why hire them in the first place eh?

WHY not invest in a (few) good auto pay machines in the mall instead of caging PEOPLE like this…

aren’t we supposed to cage birds, bunnies, hamsters, rats, or some other animals???

cheap labor is also HUMAN!

obviously, I’m kinda mad right now.

tired.

period cramp.

backache.

gotta be formal tomorrow. !@#$%

headache.

dislike funerals.

tears.

memories.

gloomy night.

flash lights.

black and white.

moodless.

colourless.

cold.

internet = turtle.

pain.

its not funny.

family drama.

tong sum fung bou zhi ka hou yuet yuen zhi sing sing tai yeong yue har hai zhi bin ka fung bou.

f.a.m.i.l.y?

lo.ve?

where the f!#& is that?

funerals.

crap!

mad.

pretentious.

bitch.

attention seeker.

disrespect.

talk.

rubbish.

hell.

heaven?.

NO.

mentally fatique.

money.

“my life is a drama. the beginning. the middle. and no ending.” – Joe Yan

we’re all,

screwed,

people!