nothing to update.

nothing to blog about.

nothing to share.

nothing special anymore, wtf.

life : ))

thank you.

good night.

p/s: i’m weeping, alone, in the dark. sigh. this is bad, real bad.

shall I go..

there’s so much to say, but where are the words, man?!

I’ve tried to gulp ‘em down, but it comes up and down again for no reason.

I feel like throwing up now, should… should I just go for it?!

the nausea is killing me, literally.

wait, the thing is, i can’t vomit them out, just yet.

why? because I have NO choice but to swallow them again and again.

URGH.

i hate this.

planned to swim today,

but

unconsciously, this frustration inside me is growing every single minute…
I don’t know how long more can I take this… seriously, i’m getting really tired of this ****.

dei, why am i crapping about it again?? no, wait, i’m not thinking about anyone atm…

its been such a long time since i last thought about someone so deeply, I think..

listening to nettaiya / snow kiss wouldn’t help as it will makes me think about the past even more.. !@#$$^@!

but its my favourite song wor, HOW!??!?!

sigh…

I’ve been constantly telling myself that ‘it’s gonna be alright’, ‘it’s gonna be okay’,
‘you can go through this’, ‘you can do it’, ‘tomorrow is a better day’,
‘its just the matter of time’, ‘you’re not alone’, ‘believe in faith & hope’,
‘love is in the air’, ‘they know that you’re hardworking & helpful’,
‘they know it’, ‘tell yourself that you’re happy’, ‘if she can do it, i’m sure you can do it too!’

etc etc…

Oh, please give me a break, will you?

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lets take a peep here on whats happening in this coming OCT:

• SPEED LIVE TOUR 2009 (JPN ONLY) will not be able to make it.
• Grad Convo (Mar & Aug 2006 intake) i dont think i can take off too.
• Super musical staging @ ourcapitalPAC. must attend.
• the MONKEY is coming back home. will be busy working.
• Superfriend’s birthday. will not be able to make it.
• another superfriend’s birthday. don’t think i’ll be able to make it also.
• to be continued…

so much to do, so little time… SAD RIGHT!

god, if you do exist / are listening to me, please grant me a wish…

fly me to jpn in OCT & watch SPEED live concert before the world ends please…

HELLO??? there????

ok, no answer, sleep time then…

bye world…