I think.. I’m all over the place..

1 minute, I’m thinking abt this… another minute i’m thinking abt that…

and I personally, don’t fancy feeling like this…

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i don’t feel like waiting.. anymore… I know, I said this before

” you’re lucky, because you still have the chance to wait, while some people don’t even have the chance to wait. “

well.. I can’t even convince myself to believe in this thoughts of mine.. anymore…

and I just hate being positive when I’m not..

I mean I would love to be, but not this time. please.

I, seriously, need a hug.

ok. times up.

Random place, random people like us, random songs, random karaoke session.

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I fell so hard & so fast till I couldn’t scream for help.

and I pick up, piece by piece, all by myself, again.

******

I can only wave at you, from far, and mime those three words.

this photo has nothing to do with the content, actually.

guys, i’m in a dilemma actually..

i don’t know which to purchase…
canon ixus 870 or leica c-lux 3?

to myself that I’m pretty lovable wtf,

another sec, i’d think that i’m damn friggin annoying by posting up so many of my camho’s pics

but again, how many is MANY???

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to myself that I’m dumb enough to not master in any kind of spoken language..

next sec, I’d think that, hey, they are tons of Malaysian facing the same problem as you,

or maybe, it’s just me. yeah, maybe.

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to myself that I’m too nice to people and then people don’t appreciate me for being ME..

next sec, sometimes i really need to be the ahem bad type of Eri to make people know who I am.

they just don’t get it when you’re being nice to them. gees!

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to myself why am I here but not there… is it because there’s no one supporting me / believes in me or

is it because i’m not good enough to let people know that I am willing to learn?

another sec, hey, it’s okay… it takes time to be there and I’m still young…

ya right, young… what if I missed the chance/opportunity? do i have the 2nd chance or even the 3rd?

oh fuggit ler? am I suppose to behave like this? /faints

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to myself that i’m not gonna get married… because marriage is not a two person kind-of-thing…

but in truth, i’m willing to do it once we’ve had enough of what we want…

Ohh, what is enough??? say it again???? haa-haa-haa

yea, judge me for being so stupid that i’m willing to settle down at 21, it’s not like I care, yea.

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to myself I can be confident when i’m at this place / this stage of my life…

next, i’d be thinking that, no lah, i actually know not much about it.. still got a lot to do and learn..

so why must i behave like what i’ve thought?

maybe, it’s just a positive way to face it… its just not me..you know

maybe, it’s because no one has ever taught me how to be it… yea, maybe..

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to myself that November is the most happening month of 2008..

3 wedding dina(s), our birthdayz, omg open house, 1st month of work; new stuff to learn/do,
interview with department supervisors, dress/heels/present hunting wtf, friends’ birthday,
chase telekom to install the damn phone in my hse, and etc…

I spent A LOT this month.. feel kinda bad… guilty for being a spendthrift, well, not really lah…

and at times, I really hate to spend…

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you know what, heck it. dont bother to read lah, it’s just so.. random of me typing this wtf

1 more day to go, and it’s all done!

my internship~

p/s: there’s no internet access at my new home yet… so….